When was the last time you read a great book? “In search of self” by Jamaican author and poet, Michelle Scarlett, is one for all avid readers, especially those on a personal journey of self-discovery to check out.
Michelle shares some of the most intimate details of her life in this book in an effort to reach people who are struggling with overcoming their past mistakes and childhood trauma. She opened up herself even though she knew she may end up losing people she has been close to over the years.
Michelle’s father, one of the main characters in the book, who turned his back on her, is now living with her in Maryland and they have a wonderful father-daughter relationship because of her willingness to forgive.
in search of self is a story of love, neglect, heartbreak, abandonment, and yet strength and resilience. Below is a poem from the book:
You said you were my friend, but I find it very strange,
You don’t want anyone to know the games we played.
Don’t hold me there, I just busted and it hurts,
Why does your hand always find its way under my skirt?
I don’t want to play anymore, it’s too uncomfortable,
I don’t want your lollipop or money even if it’s doubled.
I won’t tell my mother because she won’t even care,
I will tell my father though, so touch me again if you dare.
I told all my friends, so now you are in trouble,
That will teach you, stay out of my bubble!
Wait, they told my parents, I didn’t know they would,
But why do I feel so scared, I should be feeling good.
The secret is out, and you are keeping your distance,
Eventually, I’ll forget about your existence Wait! It’s my fault?
How could that be? He was the adult, I was only seven, eight maybe.
I should have kept it to myself, but it was such a burden,
I don’t care what they say, I won’t beg your pardon.
Stay away from me, I am just a child,
I learned a name for you now, you are a pedophile.